Life in a given day

I haven’t figured out if I am eating to live or living to eat - I hope the later, well at least then I have something to blame for my fast draining bank account. This doesn’t necessarily mean I try new place every time. This only means that I have found my comfort food here in Minneapolis (far-far away from home). Home is Baroda (Gujarat – India) and we are known for our delicious dishes. Such good variety and so many distinct flavors. I feel if my Mother was a good cook which she isn’t – I would have missed out on exploring all the good food I have tried so far. Growing up it was always an easy choice to eat out. Hey! Did I mention how awesome my mom is? :)

I am a person who feels 1000 feelings at the same time. I cry and then laugh somewhere in between and remember that I am sad so I cry again. I get upset at someone and immediately feel sorry that I took away a moment of happiness from her/him, guilt takes over and I let the other person be mad at me. I get up in the morning feeling great and as day progresses with numerous interaction with people around or simply the weather – I feel strangely different every passing minute. It is an extremely difficult job to talk to myself in and out of something. Have you heard of having a relationship with yourself? I have one and O boy! It takes effort to maintain that relationship. I have a sign that I carved by the bathroom which says “I am in charge of how I feel today and I choose Happiness”.  This contradicts with my feelings so many times in a given day and reminding myself what my goal is – makes me wonder what is the best thing that can give me what I want i.e. pure joy, I start thinking about food. No strings attached – you like the food, you eat more of it or you go to that place more often, if you don’t – food isn’t going to feel offended. You won’t feel guilty of hurting food. Food understands!

I am vegetarian by choice and every ethnic dish I have tried in past two years has some of the best vegetarian options for me. I have not felt a need to eat meat yet. Am I missing out on something? Who knows! Do I want to find out – probably not. I am an extremely picky person when it comes to food. My mind and my taste buds needs to agree on something before I pick a dish to eat. I am pretty difficult to please when it comes to food or beer or life in general.